I wear you around my neck, but I’m sure it still hasn’t fully hit me yet. It’s been months, and I still have nightmares, there’s one where I’m always chasing you not being able to see where you are running; like there were signs I’ve missed, was I really this blind? And suddenly you are just gone like smoke on a misty day and I can’t see anything, I scream your name but it vanishes into thin air, I run around looking for you but you’re nowhere you’re just gone; then I wake up exhausted.